Desires of life…

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Try as we might, we cannot deny the physical needs of having a human experience…it warms the soul to give in to our desires, but only with the heart and soul at the center. We may try to fulfill these desires with short lived experiences but in the long run, we hurt deeply…it is meant for us to have intimate relationships no doubt, but we have to honor ourselves in the process…love is a beautiful thing!

Eye See You…

How is it when we connect with someone we feel like we’ve know forever? It is bliss! Sweet as a kiss, or a smile that lingers on…we talk on and on, forever finding ways and yearning to play with memories, oh the eyes do tell…we come crawling out of our shell, warming in the sun of the other, beaming in love…how beautiful…please don’t ever go away..stay near me, let’s commune by the sea and watch as the sun sets and the moon comes swooning in the sky behind the clouds…I wanna scream out loud how happy I am that we’ve found each other! You are my family, my familiar, a whisper in my ear…recognizing that we are here; light beings, being light to each other and shining light on the shadows we’ve held inside.

Sometimes we travel, other times not but once known, such sweetness can never be forgotten…it’s like we can be wide open and not fear a questioning leer or a peculiar gaze, we’ve been around forever and a day…

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Venus in Cancer; my thoughts…

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“To have Venus in Cancer is to be in love with the Moon, to be moved by her beauty, pulled by her gravity and influenced by her phases. It is to have an affinity with all in nature that is governed by the Queen of the tides.”

This excerpt is taken from the book; “Hey Baby, What’s Your Sign?”

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In matters of the heart, I have been hard on myself in some of my past relationships, thinking that I love “too” strongly, I feel too much and take things oh so personally, but reading this excerpt made me smile. I was at a yard sale last weekend and the book I retrieved this from was on sale for a dollar. The messages inside though, have been priceless.  Ah, I love it when something I need shows up just in time… I burst into giggles; happy, free, cell rejuvenating giggles after really getting into this book :). Now I REALLY know why I love to go to the Ocean and watch her rise; the Moon.  Like the hard shell that covers the tender body of the crab, Cancers are very “protective” of their hearts. But it is the Moon that allows for those emotions to be expressed. And they can be expressed so beautifully through love, creativity and finding joy in every aspect of our being. Why have I been hard on myself for loving with all of my heart? I think I know…there is a certain level of vulnerability involved in sharing our hearts, especially for those with Venus in Cancer; and when that love is not taken seriously, it can be very painful, or at least it was for me. I have actually gone on many hiatuses in my life, telling myself that the only way to never be hurt is to never be vulnerable, but in love, that kind of reasoning is unrealistic. I was however, prepared to keep my heart covered and protected for as long as I needed to…

The truth is I really needed to just let go, release… Throughout my life, I watched those around me, keeping the upper hand in their relationships by controlling their emotions, to the point that expressing them seemed “weak” and repressing them was tantamount to being strong. I took this on in my relationships, even with my own self and how I felt about who I was. I’m definitely guilty of holding my deepest fears inside my heart and of inadvertently being overly cautious while missing out on experiences that may have allowed me to shine even brighter. The innate drive I’ve felt since I was a girl to nurture has only increased, but there is now a level of wisdom I adhere to in heeding that drive. It feels good not to be fearful and worry about what tomorrow may bring when it comes to love and matters of the heart. If the energy of another resonates with me and I feel balanced and blissful when I am around it, then I open my heart to receive and give fully. For what is love if it can’t be expressed in fullness and emotional vulnerability? When the Moon is Full, I stare at her longingly, like looking into the eyes of a loved one and I allow her to bring forth what has been hidden in the shadows of my heart; and she does, every time.

 

 

 

 

Open to the Flow…

Why believe in Love when it can be so fleeting?

Why risk the moment where next to mine, your heart is not beating?

Why not? When I know that Love is an outlet for the most intense of emotions to flow. 

Nothing can replace a hug or a kiss, especially with whom you love…not at ALL is it easy to dismiss. Love deserves validity, a chance to grow into something so beautiful. Love fills me where I once felt doubt, where I once felt just fine without. That is not my path currently, for Love is beckoning me; challenging me to face my fears, to let go of the pain of yesterday’s years. 

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I am intrigued, and perplexed at the same time. I’m very curious, but also apprehensive about what I am feeling…still I cannot help but wonder what it would be like to make love to you…Ours is a relationship that is not without complications; we are close friends and have been for the longest. I cherish that aspect of our relationship and would only want for many more years of friendship. But my dilemma is I want you so badly…I desire to be so close to you, clasping your palms against mine and then I want to be alone with you for as long as it would take to bare my soul to you and feel yours too. Believe me when I say this desire of mine is not solely based on attraction, for while you are a most gorgeous representation of human beauty; mind, body and soul, it’s so much more than that, my desire is, my wish is; to see you in a state of pure bliss. All I can think about is how cosmically deep our connection would be, the energy shared between you and me.

 

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Love is free…

Love means setting the idea of what I thought was love free and allowing it to return as a deeper meaning for me…
All I have to do is relinquish my inhibitions and love will be one of the greatest expeditions…
I have had beautiful journeys near and far, some left me glowing like the birth of a star…but on some occasions, I lost my way…I didn’t know how to feel or exactly what to say. I enclosed my heart in the cocoon of my dreams, hoping things were better than what they seemed. I let the floodgates open and released my tears and fears that held me captive for so many years. I decided I would try again, once more, because my desire to give love and receive it rests deeply within my core.

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Photo by Caras Ionut “Running Free”